I am sorry for not writing in awhile however I want to share a blog post from a friend and client of mine that will move your soul.
Today I cried during the virtual Yoga class I attended. I am a beginner at Yoga, and it takes me a ton of convincing myself to attend a class because I do what I am not supposed to do, judge myself.
I am only human, right?
I also just got done with a section of my online math class that upset me so much I broke one pen and scratched up multiple papers over one pain staking question. Then if that was not enough as I was trying to log into the zoom minutes before the virtual class started, the zoom on my computer states that I needed an update before I can join the call. Holy Cow! Was that computer about to go through a window. So, I quickly joined the zoom call on my phone and the audio did not work. I had to exit the call and re-enter and then it worked. Thank God! Trust me, the thought in my head of saying screw it happened multiple times, but I am glad I did not listen to it.
The Yoga class has begun, and the instructor tells us to close our eyes and breath. Something I am a strong believer in but fought today.
The first breath of air I was worried that she could notice I was still in my pajamas and gained 10 pounds extra during this quarantine period.
The second breath I had to tell myself that I need to stop thinking about what all just happened and be in the now and my inner sarcastic self, laughed a bit.
The third breath I started to be in the moment of NOW.
The instructor (Heather Nieves) read a passage that I so needed to hear today. About self-love, something I was neglecting myself this week. “To love yourself right now just as you are is to give yourself heaven. Don’t wait until you die. If you wait until you die, you die now. But if you love, you live now”. I am not sure if she was looking at us while we were in our first pose (child pose) after that message but the tears just came rolling out. Try doing child pose and wiping tears away at the same time!
I was neglecting myself the release from the intense emotions this week. I was holding them all in and chugging along as if I were a steam engine that could not break. Last night my body gave me my first warning sign with not allowing me to go to sleep. If my body could talk it would say,” Hey, You There! Stop and release your emotions”. To some people like myself that means to cry. To others it might mean to go for a run, to journal, to play a game, to bake, or anything else that allows you to feel. By the end of that Yoga session I felt a weight lifted from my shoulders. I could think clearer, and I did not want to scream when the tiniest thing went wrong. The Yoga sessions helped me gain control back over my day.
I thought to myself today, how can I prevent this from happening again? I came up with the idea of scheduling in an emotional release time. A time that I check in with myself and really feel. For me that will be having a real good cry. If you have not tried crying before on purpose, try it seriously, it feels so good! I also have always loved the idea of screaming into the open but where I live that might alarm some people. I will have to wait for the outdoor adventures to try that one. If you could schedule in an emotional release time what would you do with it? Feeling your emotions is healthy. It allows you to handle your day with a clearer head.
If you are apart of my Facebook community, Your Path to Zen_Ology, I hope you will share with me what you did during your emotional release. Thank you for allowing me to become vulnerable and share with you my experience of neglecting my emotional release. It is true you learn the best through experience.
Here to Serve You,
The Blogger Amanda Sebonia
Your Path: Your Meaning of Zen
Go reach out to Amanda, support her blog and know more good is coming from her! I hope you enjoyed this guest post and I plan to have more!
XOXO,
Heather Nieves
Founder I <3 Me Yoga
Women’s Empowerment Coach
Vegan #BoyMom
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